As much as I enjoyed maintaining this blog while I could, I was ‘stumbled upon’ by someone I used to know and God knows who else.  I now can’t help but feel paranoid every time I have the desire to post something.  I’ll probably start a new blog when I have something more significant to show for all my efforts/I’m in a better place but until then this will be my last post.  Thanks for reading girls and all your support and being so lovely.

 Don’t you dare pity me.

as I’m a desperate little girl!

Girls…?

I’ve got a challenge for you, maybe a little bit of a game for you, if you’re interested.  I tried to be healthy, I tried to eat 3 meals a day, but it really hasn’t worked out for me.  I need to go back to my tried and tested method of only eating dinner.  I know breakfast boosts metabolism, but I like the hunger all day to spur me on and it’s the only thing that has ever worked for me.

So, yet again, starting tomorrow this is my new start.

The challenge, should you choose to accept, it is to make me over.  Let me explain: I used to be really ugly and fat and then I lost like 2 stone and suddenly I was pretty.  I moved in with my naturally skinny flatmate and I was the cute one.  She eats a lot and expects me to as well, I let my diet slide and I was maintaining at 1 stone heavier than my hw.  She went away for the summer and I thought this was my chance to finally shed the weight again.  I didn’t.

She is still skinny, dyed her hair dark and now she’s the prettiest and everyone knows it.  I feel horrible about myself and I’m at my highest weight in two years.  I hate myself.

Help me be pretty again?  I need to make some change to spur me on and excite me and make me beautiful.

The idea is, if I get enough response, to temporarily post a couple of pictures of me at my cutest and now as well.  But I obviously won’t do it if no-one is interested.  

 I just want my confidence back. Please help?

• 3L of water sipped throughout the day
• Coffee for breakfast
• Dr Stuart’s Slim Plus tea twice daily
• 1 meal of 500 calories (I have to eat in front of my flatmate in the evening, but I work all day)
• Minimum 6 hours sleep a night
• 30 Day Shred everyday gradually building up to proper workouts

I’ve got a challenge for you, maybe a little bit of a game for you, if you’re interested.  I tried to be healthy, I tried to eat 3 meals a day, but it really hasn’t worked out for me.  I need to go back to my tried and tested method of only eating dinner.  I know breakfast boosts metabolism, but I like the hunger all day to spur me on and it’s the only thing that has ever worked for me.

So, yet again, starting tomorrow this is my new start.

The challenge, should you choose to accept, it is to make me over.  Let me explain: I used to be really ugly and fat and then I lost like 2 stone and suddenly I was pretty.  I moved in with my naturally skinny flatmate and I was the cute one.  She eats a lot and expects me to as well, I let my diet slide and I was maintaining at 1 stone heavier than my hw.  She went away for the summer and I thought this was my chance to finally shed the weight again.  I didn’t.

She is still skinny, dyed her hair dark and now she’s the prettiest and everyone knows it.  I feel horrible about myself and I’m at my highest weight in two years.  I hate myself.

Help me be pretty again?  I need to make some change to spur me on and excite me and make me beautiful.

The idea is, if I get enough response, to temporarily post a couple of pictures of me at my cutest and now as well.  But I obviously won’t do it if no-one is interested.  

Please help, I just want my confidence back.

Binges control my life, it’s so upsetting.  I was getting there, now I’m fucked.  So new start again tomorrow, what’s new?!

B: Porridge - 67

B2: Porridge, apple - 67+50

S: Candy - 300

L: Porridge, americano - 67+12

S: Lots of candy, cereal, oatcake, edamame beans - ~ 600

D: Ham s/wiches - 300

T: 1463 - kill me now.

Plan for tomorrow:

B: porridge, apple, kiwi - 67+50+40

L: ham sandwich - 150

S: kiwi - 40

D: salmon, salad - 101+60

T: 508

I will be fucking skinny.

I hate when people make jokes about disordered eating habits.

Killed my cravings for fries with ricecakes and ketchup.  What a life.

No, you’re lovely!  You’re taller and more toned and I’m so jeally!  XOXOXO